So Saturday…. =)

So I went to Jacksonville with Him and His family.

They were all really nice and His mom told me that she liked me… Even though we had a little mishap…. So that made me feel a bit better….. even though He just keeps saying “There is a difference between liking and accepting.” I’ll stick with they like me.

When we got to His uncles house, we watched Interview With A Vampire. Which He had never seen. I can’t believe that… I love that movie. It’s really really great. Of course He was just all “It was alright” And we tried to watch The Departed…. But we kept getting distracted and missed half the story line…. So we put in Hostel. Do not watch that movie. The entire first half is nothing but sex. And then the killing is crap. >.> We didn’t even get to finish it because we had to leave…. So I don’t approve of that movie.

But it was a good day. And I know that it would have been better if we could have killed them all just so we could be alone. But with what happened while people were around… I am very proud of myself. =D

There is some kind of desire that I can’t seem to control very well. It is kind of like my own form of the Ardeur. (Which means nothing to bunches of people…. But that’s alright.) And if it isn’t fed then I can do nothing else with my day… My week… Even just the few moments….. Until it is satisfied. And maybe that comes with the territory of being with someone… The drive to do whatever you can to please them while pleasing yourself.
My hands were aching when I couldn’t touch Him… To the point that it hurt and I had to hold my hands together and dig my fingernails into them.
But then, when I did, everything was set into place… Nothing had ever felt more right…

In you and I there’s a new land
Angel’s in flight

My sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music inside
What’s left of me what’s left of me now

I watch you fast asleep
All I fear means nothing

In you and I there’s a new land
Angels in flight

My sanctuary my sanctuary yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music inside
What’s left of me what’s left of me

My heart’s a battleground

You show me how to see
That nothing is whole and nothing is broken

In you and I there’s a new land
Angel’s in flight

My sanctuary my sanctuary yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music inside
What’s left of me what’s left of me now

My fears and lies
Melt away

Utada Hikaru— Sanctuary